I've never envied others, I have
truly always been happy for others success's in life...Their new
cars, homes, furniture, career's, money, fame, just however the
people I knew advanced in life, I have always been happy for
them... ...I still am...
after I was 'Born Again' by the
Spirit of my Father, I have found something that I do envy, and
sometimes cry for...I have met a lot of people who were born
again when they were young, and have known, and LIVED for Jesus
most of their lives, and I do envy that very
If I could go back to my younger days
and begin anew, and KNOW what I know now, I would have accepted
Him into my heart and life when I was young...He would have
saved me from so much misery that I have lived through, and most
of it was my own foolishness... They saw hindsight is 20/20, and
I agree with that totally!
My Grandmother taught me about
Jesus....She was a Christian lady, so because of her 'teaching'
I did believe Jesus was real, but I didn't accept Him as my
Savior, back then...
The year I got saved, God began to make
me aware of certain things in my life that I had never noticed
before....During the summer I also noticed that I was coming in
contact with people who were Christians... Much more than
One special lady, that became a sweet
friend to me, who worked as a secretary where I was working at
that time, began to subtly speak of the things of God, in such a
way as not to scare me away....
Looking back I know that God knew just
who to use in helping to open my blinded eyes....I had many
problems in my life, and she knew that I needed Jesus in my
life, but I didn't know that, so my Sweet Jesus used this
precious friend to help me to see...
But that was during the summer, and I
just wasn't "Ready" yet....I began to watch a bit of preaching
on the TV. once in awhile, and I knew I needed to say the prayer
with them when they would end the preaching, (what they call the
sinner's prayer) but I would always get right to the last
sentence, to ask Jesus in and I would draw back, I just couldn't
do that, not yet....I was miserable at this time too, and cried
a lot, but I had no idea that I was under powerful conviction
from my Father....
All during this time satan was
whispering in my ear and telling me that I had waited to long,
and I couldn't be forgiven, because I had commited to many
sin's, and such junk as that, and I was believing him, yet I was
beginning to wonder if that was true...
Then one Sunday my Daughter (who is one
of the greatest treasures of my life) decided to go to
church....There was a small church right across the street from
her and she went this Sunday which was November 22, 1987, I remember
because when she got out of church that day she called me, and
"Mom I got saved today!"
Well I was soooo happy for her, cause I
knew her fate was sealed! You see I knew, (even then before I
was saved,) that when a person accepts Jesus into their heart,
it is an Eternal Salvation...I believe He keeps us saved, if He
didn't I'd never make it........But back to my
I got to thinking now she's going to go
someplace that I can't go with her.... And that just about broke
my heart....I let a couple of Sunday's go by before I decided to
go to church with her...The Sunday I decided to go, I cried all
through the church service, and couldn't wait to get OUT of that
place! I ran from that building as soon as I could get out without
being so conspicuous....
But the next Sunday I was right back at
that church again, even thought I didn't want to go, I just felt
drawn to go...This Sunday was quite different, I did cry all
through the service and when the preacher ended the message, he
gave the alter call asking if anyone wanted to accept Jesus into
their heart, (and they kept playing and singing the song "Just
As I Am") and I kept sitting there ~ crying...All of a sudden
that preacher said, "If there's someone here who is trying to
make that decision to accept Jesus into your heart, satan will
try his best to keep you from coming up here."
Well, when he said that I thought
"satan has had my life all of my life, and it's over cause I am
done with him," and I tell you a fact, I thought my feet had
'wings' that Sunday morning, they did fly me up there, and I did the
best and wisest thing that I had ever done in my life, I asked
Jesus to forgive me, and accept me into His Family!
And I Praise Him for His faithfulness,
cause He did! I truly did reach out my hand to Him and He
grabbed it, and pulled me in, and He has held on to me since that
day...And He will kept holding me throughout my life here on
this earth...The date of my new birth was December20,
I have heard so many people say that He
won't keep you from heartaches and problems and I know that is
the truth, but my life has been so much sweeter, and easier
since I met Him, till even the heartaches are easier to face...My
life HAS been changed, and it is sooooooo much better! He has
made life easier for me, every day!
If you are reading this and you don't
know Jesus, there's just not enough words in the dictionary to
tell you how Wonderful He is! Or how very much He loves you! And
how happy you will be if you make the decision to let Him into
It is a simple thing to accept Him into
your heart and life and be born again by His Spirit...The only
catch is that you have to want Him more than anything in your
life...In other words you have to truly mean it...It's a heart
thing, not a head thing....
If you will ask Him in He will come in
and truly you will never be the same! And there will never be a
day that you will regret it!
I love Him with all that's in me, and
thank Him for what He's done for me... I also love this family He
has put me into...They are awesome!
Scripture: John 3:3
Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto
thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of